I have found turning away from self to others, shifting the focus to love and serve others, is key to overcoming HURT, SPIRITUAL REJECTION, BITTERNESS, INFECTED EMOTIONAL WOUNDS, to achieve DEEP HEALING and refreshing, renewal, by the HOLY SPIRIT!

                   REPENTANCE & FORGIVENESS IS KEY! 


                                           SET FREE
                            and at LIBERTY
              to live a life having inner PEACE,  
                   FREEDOM and TRUTH !


The whole reason for testimony, and on a webpage like this, is that I hold a hope that Someone coming across this page, will be blessed by what they read and see here and that they will be open to change through repentance and forgiveness.

To exercise these is simple enough to say, but to do, well they take intention and forbearance, and this will take time. Transformation usually does!

Forgiveness does not let anyone off the hook; it is simply an act of OBEDIENCE, for we have been called to FORGIVE, as we have been FORGIVEN.
You do not have to go back and restore that relationship, fix that situation, especially if it was toxic, no way. Neither are you or I expected to rebuild trust with that person again.


For all for have sinned and come short of the glory of God; being justified (just as if I never sinned) freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.

Romans 3:23-24 KJV


To live a life that is guided by the Holy Spirit, to be purposeful, whole, and living in holiness, in spiritual abundance brings an unspeakable peace and joy.

The world does not offer this.

The world is temporal.

It will end, it will fall away.

Everlasting life comes from Jesus our LORD, the Son of God who paid the price of sin,

"I am the Resurrection and the Life: he that believeth in Me,  though he were dead, yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in Me shall never die."

John 11:25-26 KJV


We think how can that person, or those people deserve our grace? Indeed, we may think it is not fair to give another person such love and grace! 

Was it fair that Jesus got up and was nailed to a cross for your sins?
Of course, this makes no sense to the world. It is absolute nonsense.




"This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these;

Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another."

Galatians 5:16-24 KJV



Be!...
daughter or son who stands in a place that is not of this world, that indeed confounds the world!

Forgive the unforgiveable!
It appears ridiculous but it is transformative!

Be transformed by confusing the world that demands and expects an offense to take root.

Do the opposite of what every one else says.
Be obedient to God, whose perfect will is good, acceptable and perfect!



"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
 
Romans 12:2 KJV



My own story ...
I was raised in NZ, in the 60s-70s, when every look and word toward me used to matter so much! ...

Rejected, abandoned, the elder of two girls, and put into boarding school at age 9, my parents both left our home and the responsibility and care of myself and my sister when I was 8.
I was sexually active by 16, had a termination at 17 while still at school. My story goes on in what I thought was 'normal' as I knew nothing else, except that the family home my sister and I called 'the dump'.

I left NZ at 21 after a broken relationship and studying for a year, saving for another year, to travel, work abroad in the UK, for several years, returning to NZ a single mother of a 9 month old baby boy, another disastrous relationship involving abuse and mental illness. Suffering PTSD at this stage, I found Jesus at 28 years of age, my son was 9 months old.

My love for piano, which I learnt from a young age, was my drawcard to church eventually achieving graduate study in music, teaching, English and the Arts.

I continued to attract men emotionally wrecked, weak, cowardly even, and in time, insecurities and flaws arose, rekindling my resentment of the paternal failure I experienced as a child. I was a magnet for, and repeatedly played out a failure for unmet expectations.  I had two more children with another toxic relationship with a man suffering from mental illness on multiple levels. My own infected emotional wounds from my childhood, despite gentleness of spirit, strong faith, and integrity, continued to poison my personal life, my relationships which sadly affected my children.

Strong elements that were faith-based after my commitment to Jesus in 1991 created a strong foundation for effective faith in my life, my mental and emotional health, and Christian-based parenting of my own three boys.
In 2008 I emigrated to Australia with my boys to build a house, a business, church stability, spiritual thriving and growth, and slowly a ministry that would inspire others.

Deborah has overcome physical, mental, emotional and financial abuse and suffering in marriage and toxic relationships, childhood rejection and abandonment.
In the past 10 years she has lost her home she built, further betrayal in marriage, ministry collapse and experienced church hurt, rejection and alienation.

Deborah has come back from utter brokenness and the desire to give up and even die, to rely on the promises God has given her. Promises to restore, to bless and abundantly provide with the close companionship of the Holy Spirit.


DIE to self, rather than DIE for self!


We are all fallen, and are on a life path to wholeness, to become Christlike.
What is your Story?
Do you know your Purpose?

I would love to hear your story!

 
Deborah